An ongoing collaborative community effort to support one of our own fallen faeries, so that they may mend their wings and one day take flight again, we are currently raising money in order to go see a top notch specialist in San Francisco ♥
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~:~:~:Disability Rate:~:~:~
We are working on a Disability Rate for all of Seattle, and beyond.
This will include survivors of violence, veterans of the war, and more in more activities than are currently attainable to them. This is a forgotten subset of the community, that unlike Students and Seniors, who do receive frequent discounts, are actually unable to work. That reality, combined with higher than average health care costs, and lack of ability to stay at events as long, due to physical maladies, make it nearly impossible to attend many, if any paid for events.
These rates will simply and inclusively take these facts into account, which in and of itself, makes it much more accessible to the disabled, at half to 1/3 the ticket price, to in some cases, free. They will also take into consideration parking, and mobility at the event, to the most considerate extent possible.
We are currently working on branding for our concept, putting together a package so it's easy for businesses and event promoters to include more of the community in their offering, with this rate (which will be renamed); we are also putting together teams of people to assist in making this website the hub of the cause and easier to navigate.. do you do web design? want credit for being hearts and talents above the rest? apply within, we thank you! teams of people to approach events and make them more disability friendly, both physically and monetarily. It is also essential we have a team of people who approach city and parking issues, as it happens much too frequently that handicap parking gets blocked off for loading, unloading or construction, leaving the regular spots untouched, and no other means for the handicap. There is more we're working on as well, please send us a message or share this website with a friend, if you think there might be something you could contribute, any effort is welcome ~
We have been met with open arms when approaching businesses and festivals with this rate, it truly is something people just hadn't thought of. 2010 supporters included VegFest, the Green Festival, Northwest Lovefest, and Starbornes' Timeless Continuum ..2011 supporters include Northwest Lovefest...show your support!!! These businesses truly are working at making their fabulousness attainable to all, not few, and this ..is priceless.
More to come soon!!!
More personal, lovely, and lengthy version
"but i thought you'd been in a car accident" ;
"what's been going on the last 10 years?!" ;
"if i/we only would have known!!!"
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http://jamisonjohnson.blogspot.com/2010/06/when-push-comes-to-love.html
Let me start off by saying that the past five years have been an incredibly tumultuous time for me. Some of you knew me prior, however briefly among my travels, others I have met since, mostly I've tried to hide or conceal this, or rather, as I've done a lot of healing, what happened is/was quite traumatic and I don't care to rehash over and over and over, so please read this . .
So that what I share, is not all you know of me, I have attempted an exceptionally brief rundown of the last 10 years or so. Mostly to fill you in, give you some background, mwa*
Mmm let's see college : started off at U of AZ where I got a minor in japanese, placed 1st in a tennis tournament, made the deans list, did Southwestern Co, placed in top 5% of sales people, winning a trip to MX with 2000 other students for a week over Thanksgiving. Just over 2 years later didn't feel like I was growing anymore and transfered to WWU where I obtained a degree in Business and Marketing, was president of the Marketing Club, lead for various internships, first paid intern ever at Mount Baker Theatre and on the Marketing Committee at Whatcom Crisis Services. . . all the time waiting tables in restaurants as well so I could afford to go to ...
Europe ! ! where part of my heart still lies :) Had enough money for a month but made it stretch and ended up staying until the day they kicked me out, 6 mos. later. Traveled around to 12 different countries, most of western europe with some of eastern europe for good measure. Nanny'd for a family on outskirts of London, then I went to Turkey with them!! To stay at a 4 star resort with buffet!! A far cry from the 'i can do food on $4 today cause that means i get to stay in europe longer' ooOoh my! To take one of the kids to a turkish hospital after he cracked his chin on the pool (open air hospital, balloons, goats, and chickens running around). Got a job under the table as a marketing manager and waitress at Tratoria Verdi an italian restaurant in the Soho area of London. I was the only English speaking person (not esl) the girls taught me Italian and i taught them English. I then met their friends and ended up moving from the room I was renting -in the hood of london across from cemetary- into a room with mmm 8 brazilian gentleman and an italian doll :) hi syl where I quickly picked up some portugeuse, and truly mastered the 'roll' 0;) Did I mention that while I was working in the restaurant, I got a job offer to go to japan and be a marketing assistant (using both degrees) which brings me to .. .
I got back to discover most of my relatives severely and suddenly ill so chose to stay and take care of them (i'd been hired to take care of an autistic boy a year or so prior as great w kids, working with him on various therapies and diet changes, and been very successful; he could make sentences and interact in the end muuch better...eating non-poisonous food is so important) so stayed, introduced them to acupuncture and 'whole' foods, superfoods, custom herbal teas, etc. I got a job working at really nice restaurants in seattle, started doing bookkeeping for a couple restaurants on the eastside (been doing it since i was 14) and started as a Marketing and Sales Rep in the Wine Industry. Yes, I've always had like 4-6 jobs. I am so multi-faceted, I enjoy honoring all parts of me :) I spent my time driving my sick relatives around to doctors and traveling throughout Oregon and Washington meeting with the various wine makers, tasting wine, selling them corks and whatnot, wining and dining, yea it was awesome. Commission only but by the end of a year or two I'd gotten some big clients and made a lot of friends, so was on my way and the checks were rolling in. Another highlight of that was when the German cork rep. came over from Germany and asked 'what is it going to take to motivate you? do you need a car, money ..' 'show me the world, i said, and i will do a faaabulous job for you', and off I went to Germany!! On b'ness yaya studied German on the way over and by the time I arrived they dismissed my translater, I do love languages ... and traveling ... and exploring, ooh my!
Shortly after all this is when the unexpected happened.
And I pause again only briefly to acknowledge that my life has indeed been a magical one, and there's so much magic I'm leaving out of the above stories, simply to keep this short and to a point.
I was assaulted on January 14th 2005 by a family member. I'd never really been hurt before, always been pretty healthy. The next few weeks were spent getting about my business as best I could, as most of my body was in shock, I had left my body, and I had no idea how hurt I was. I couldn't get up stairs without extreme exhaustion, couldn't move my neck or breathe without pain (but i didn't know til months later and my body slowly moved out of a state of trauma), I passed out driving on the freeway more than 6 times, windows down, coffee and music blaring (oh is thaat a concussion whoops) (but when you have it your all ..huh) only to wake up less than a foot away from a car going about 70. I was on my way from Portland to Seattle on my birthday, so my intention was to make it back then go to a clinic, then go to my birthday dinner. I would pull over, nap for an hour or two, then try and drive again. Make it another 30m/1hr before I would wake up again and do it over. This happened at least 7 times. There are so many angels around me it is miraculous I made it. Notably, I did tell the cop that pulled me over what had happened, as by then was going 80 rushing back to a clinic, and all he did was send me on my way with a half off ticket on account of it being my birthday. :0 groan
So, growing up in Beeellevue we didn't learn about 'the system' nor did I really ever plan on using it, as I was setting myself up pretty well for success with everything I was doing/studying/learning/exploring/being/loving ~:) It ended up that a couple friends saw how bad I was that one drove me up to a clinic only to be given Vicodyn and an ulcer from that. My 'family' had been very dismissive of everything, didn't come a check on me, wouldn't invest in doctors or healing tools, they wouldn't even come pick me up for my bday dinner after hearing about the passing out (and that should have been a red flag, but they're 'family' riiight) although they did say that they would take my bills and get them taken care of and that I would be taken care of, that they would make sure of that (which is why i didn't go to the police). Ah, words. It ended up that they were lying, and against doing anything 'hard'. I saw that they weren't helping and actually still hindering quite severely my healing, so began to take my things from the house. This is when they locked me out. Cause what do you do when your daughter is assaulted and passing out? You lock her out, riiiight. They thought I would care soo much about my things I would come running back, nope just decided I was gonna be a Buddhist about it and went, fuck it: I don't need those material 'things'!. They weren't going to get my spirit, too. Which was crumbling ...or as it turns out, shedding rather abruptly as the universe made way for a truer foundation.
Because that's not family. And I know that in my heart. They were always crazy, but I always figured if I ever actually needed them they would be there. Letting go of the expectation of them being there and the pain of them not being there, was incredibly difficult and deciding that I deserved people that would be there, and leaving, was also incredibly hard, while also being incredibly freeing and honoring to myself and soul parts who had disappeared along the journey with them.
I pause to mention that in addition to their son assaulting me and allowing him to get away scott free, they stood by as my boss, their friend and colleage, stole 20K of my earned commisions only 5 months following the attack. This was lame. No lawyer would take on either case, the first as was too 'sticky' the second as the amount just wasn't high enough. I was unable to find a lawyer than was more human than s/he was a lawyer and I met with many. What really needs to happen is that the statute needs to be overturned to account for those with concussions etc etc. who find themselves knee deep in the system without a map or a fully working vessel.
I am now left with a host of ailments, conditions etc and a seemingly deteriorating body. I have spent the past five years of my life studying physiology and anatomy, healing modalities, meeting with practitioner after practitioner, specialists, to try and heal, reclaim my life. 'what are you up to?' that's what! and dealing with the system. This past week has been exceptionally hard, as it does mark the five year anniversary of the attack. And I never in a million years thought that five years later I would still be healing physically. And I've made so much progress, there's honestly moore?! Will I ever be able to travel and hike again, I wonder. Certainly not with a 70lb backpack 10 miles across London right, ..sigh. Sure as shit glad I did it then instead of selling out though for sure.
So, five years of my life has gone by, I lost my, albeit false, family, ability to work, hike, explore, provide and have suffered financially, emotionally, socially, most of all physically. Five years that I have lost to pain -a huuge chunk of my life, 60 entire months -a few only in bed (whoops don't do that either if you're ever hurt, your body does not need rest) even though your heart might -I should have been continuing to build what I'd intented, what i'd planned for, a foundation, a home, a livelihood. . . and i stop even myself when I say 'should' ;) as certainly, if this had not had happened, I still would be working 60-80 hour weeks, working perhaps more than I was living, a big message afterwards seemingly from above, was 'you are not HERE to work' -whadya mean there's other things?! i thought those things came aaafter...and decided that suffering was indeed bliss as it brought so much clarity, hugely abruptly albeit, and in the end resonance : my surroundings better reflected my core, and as a result, I was more me than i ever had been. This, and the healing i did following, allowed me to look around at everything in my life and ask if it truly resonated, and if it didn't, I flicked it out to create room for something that would. The healings did so much for me that I became a teacher and practitioner and have been lucky enough to be able to pass this along, although not as much recently, due to deteriorating health, although yes they are very much still in demand !! but then again so is well, most of what I do eh, I'm juuust not able to do it. wimper :{ I love working (I know wierd), but I love everything I do and dangnabbit if it isn't the most frustrating thing to have built up these businesses only to have people waiting on your services and you truly can't provide. *&#$)
I cannot do this alone. It has been decided ;) I need the love and assistance of my fellow brothers and sisters. Most of all, I needed you to know this so that you're not wondering where I am, why I'm not there, why I'm hurt or popping ribs in, why I'm pulling up on my neck to allow room for that, why I don't have the money for god only knows what fun thing, and so that I don't' see you wondering, feel it, or have to answer why. Know also that I love you, in whatever small or big mysterious, passing or lingering way, my being recognizes the light in your being, and i love you for it. Know that the chronic pain, migraines, shifting plates in my head, neck, spine, ribs and hips, stenosis, scoliosis, fibromyalgia, ptsd, etc might get in the way of me expressing that as often as I would like to and yea, I left the worst stuff out. Aaalll in the past 5 years. It is as if I am a prisoner in my own body most days.
{this is me, asking for help . ..}
I am interested in holding a number of benefits, my hope is to retain the medical attention/services I am currently lacking in my healing plan, stay in my house, and make it possible for me to reclaim my life. There is also one specialist I've found that runs a pain clinic based off musculoskeletal ailments, in San Diego, whom I feel may be able to help. I'm interested in holding a benefit, possibly in 2011, so that I'm able to explore this rare resource and possibly make a difference in strengthening and aligning my physical state of being. There are a number of gracious musicians, artists, performers, event folk, and more who have expressed an interest in donating their time for the cause. If you are interested in any way of being in service, please reach out and let me know, however small the role. If it's recognition you desire, sponsorship is always an option and I am totally about reciprocity. Do you know a nonprofit to run big donations thru? Are you interested in helping to create a nonprofit? Do you know anyone who might be interested in participating in some way? Doesn't hurt to ask, and it in fact does the opposite, and is totally awesome of you mmmmph!
It is also necessary that I retain a lawyer or two. It is imperative that I solicit the best law firms around, present my case, and retain lawyers pro bono. Anyone passionate about justice should say yes, and there's got to be someone left. If you know any lawyers, or have time to look into good law firms with healthy pro bono sectors, I am eternally grateful. So, one lawyer is for bankruptcy (might as well have full disclosure whateva) and really ideally there would be a 2nd working to get both statutes upturned and my money (earned stolen commissions), and compensation for at least some of this. As I've paid in every way imaginable for that dickwad, maybe its his turn, eh. :: UPDATE :: We've edited the above paragraph to only ask for two lawyers!! Why? Because we represented ourselves and won!!! (Oct 2010/Dec 2010) No lawyer deserved 25% of the last 6 years of my life :)~ The Justice system showed up! I was found disabled on over 10 physical counts, each with 5/5 severity. I now have better care and paying rent is a bit easier. This is fabulous. A huge weight lifted as I left the courtroom, there was no denying that I qualified, it was just whether or not the system would come through, and it did
Craniosacral is definitely something that is missing from my reportoire and I do enjoy recognizing your time with a gift, should you be a massage therapist with cranialsacral experience or happen to know someone who might be interested. Helps exponentially with all this stress and physical torment ...
I'd also like to create a website like the one that was created for karyn www.savekaryn.com i think this will be the easiest way for people to support, as so many don't know how. Can someone help with this please? Note :: this site is not the same as it was ..sad :( story still there : a woman racked up a bunch of debt, created a site, asked people to donate $1 or more and soon had her 20K debt paid off !! So, I have more of that but it's not from shopping either eh so maybe i'll have luck too, eh? :: UPDATE :: we have the site, and you're on it, interested in making it more like the above, with the whole 'if everyone donates just a dollar' as this would truly make a difference, and not be asking too much of any one. We are also interested in making the site better in ~any~ way!
I've always been a giver, always taken care of myself, been super independent so this whole 'asking for help' thing and 'receiving help' the last few years has been wierd so i'm sorry if i'm not that good at it, it's rather new to me. feel free to offer modest friendly suggestions ~:)
There are of course, other therapies that would be helpful, but would be long to list them all, rather if you know anyone, and think they'd be interested in supporting something fabulous, perhaps in trade for sponsorship, trade booth at benefit, feel free to approach them, there is only one me, and i don't get to be me that often anymore.
Lastly, help at home is always helpful and a lot of times needed as I do get pinched nerves and shoulders dislocating on a daily basis and am often unable to do many dishes. There are also generally some projects with the garden or outside or building things, I say as I pause only to remember that I've been hired to do that shit also so 0;) ha but now it is difficult, and I do need help, or there is no garden etc etc.
I would not be where I am today were it not for the people who came out of the woodwork, many of whom I had not known prior to this, to help me heal. For them i am eternally grateful and in awe at the beauty and support that lies inherent in our universe.
Thank you so much for reading this far.
"for true friends are those who will dance with us in the sunshine, as well as walk with us in the rain"
or however that goes
Thank you brother sister spirit child
For reaching out to another
Fallen falcon lost faerie magician
In essence
Reaching out to yourself
In essence
Reaching out to God
Beautiful ~
composed January 2010
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